I'm almost speechless.

I don't know how to put into words what I'm feeling about this movie. It's like anger, sickness and helplessness in one.

That shit is disturbing and I don't know how the actors got through making the movie without some nightmares. It's uncomfortable and sad and scary.

Kevin is not visually disturbing, it's more psychological because you can see and fill in the blanks of how it all came to be(There's a synopsis on IMDB and Wikipedia that tells you more about the story, which is based on a book of the same name).

I can't

Tilda Swinton needed to get an Oscar for her role. Ezra Miller proved how damn good of an actor he is at 18.

This movie made me cry.

I love my show. I appreciate its inclusiveness when it comes to race.

What I often wonder about is the voice-acting. During the whole Racebending fail people were upset about how the movie version disregarded the original characters by making them white. It bothered me that these representations of POCs were being voiced by white folks as well. How does that make sense?

Does anyone even care about that fact? Or is it okay because they look POC and that's all that matters?

I'm torn because I enjoyed the way they were portrayed by the voice actors. However this is never brought up and it feels icky. Disingenuous even. This is a big fucking elephant in the fandom. Why is no one talking about it?


*I know Zuko and the original Uncle Iroh were voiced by Asian/Asian-American actors as were various guest stars. My observation is limited to the main characters, ie. THE LAST AIRBENDER.  

I am quite aware of Racebending.com's ideas about the voice acting. It seems very pick and choosy about the entire thing.

( tl;dr )

His gov't name was Noah but we call him Minh. Hop Chi Minh. Cos I live with a Communist. *eye roll*



They said he's about four months. He's easygoing and loves to be petted on his head(he finds you and dips low to get snuggles). And when he gets fresh greens, or Craisins, he binkies around the pen. Binkying is like running and jumping excitedly. Other than that, he's pretty mellow. He grooms himself so much and digs through his hay piles and rearranges his space. And he's cute.

I am trying to figure out where future rabbit (possibly named Fred) will spend most of his day. It'll either be in the living room with me or have his own space in the office and a play area at the end of the hall. Either way, he'll get to spend a lot of his time looking at me, which I hear bunnies enjoy.

Misfits. Is anyone else watching Series 2? I spent half of yesterday catching up and I'm loving the twist. Two more eps and I'll be done. I think a write-up is in order.

I've been watching shows for the past couple of seasons without much analysis. Most of that energy has been funneled into books I've read instead. I want to discuss Supernatural, White Collar, House, The Game(yes!), Justified, Castle and Fringe. There's a half dozen other shows I could discuss as well but I watch by proxy cos I share the TV with the boy and have to make compromises. It's funny how I can pick up an entire storyline with the sound off, glancing up occasionally from my computer.  I know more about his shows than he does.

Got my Flash course tonight so I best be getting ready.

Not much really. February has been a low, uneventful month.

On Saturday I finally tried non-spicy rice cakes. guy and I used some ground beef instead of sirloin and broccoli cos we were out of scallions. Yes, I do believe I like rice cakes. Next time it'll be the spicy kind.

We also went near Union Square(cos he needed a haircut) and ended up at PetCo. We played with the adoptable bunnies in the basement for a few hours. We sat in their playpens and got dirty and everything. And we still want a rabbit. It made me want one even more. Guy was anxious about the potential bun eating our books.

Other than school I've been voraciously reading books on the Nook.

I tell myself it is only two days, two nights really. Only two times out of the week I have to get dressed and prepare myself for the world. It is still tough. It was easier when I had a full course load and four-five classes to attend across the week. I want to hunger down and organize my thoughts and recover from the grueling past couple of semesters. Fuck you winter blues and fuck you depression.

Today's motivation was getting HIV tested at the school health clinic. I've been meaning to do it for the longest time and finally made myself leave on time to catch the walk-in hours. It wasn't scary at all. The finger stick was quick and painless until the technician squeezed my finger to get a better sample. Ten minutes later I got my result and I am negative.

Having to take care of myself in this way was the highlight of my day. Blah feeling scattered and down.

I hope all of my f-list is doing well too.

  long time, huh?

Nothing major has occurred in the weeks I've last updated. So let's start from today.

I went to my semi-annual bra fitting at Bra Tenders. Since I gained a few I was definately in need of a consultation. My regular lady wasn't there but the one I got was just as attentive and nice. And we realized I went up a band size and a cup or two. I am almost normal lady sized (band size anyway) at 32. The cup size is another thing. I have come in at double F.

YES, I said FF. My fitter sympathesized with me given my whole, tiny person thing with small back. I miss the old 30F but I'm just glad to have a bra that fits properly again. Whoo!

In other news, I won a Nook. I entered the contest from Dr. Oz yesterday and they got back to me today. Whoo! Again.

That is pretty much it. School has started and it is pretty mellow. I only have two courses this term and I'm looking for ways to fill my time in a focused manner. I have way too many ideas and projects I want to tackle.

This is NOT Who I am.

Sometimes I feel like I'm watching myself from the inside, unable to control or advice myself about things. 

I had a quiet X-mas. It was really nice not to be all crazy over the day (since Guy and I are heathens and don't celebrate holidays). We did exchange gifts for the season and because it was also our anniversary time. I got him a cast-iron grill pan which he immediately used! He got me stainless steel chopsticks and a portable pair.

Also, a Snuggie. Yes, a Snuggie.

For myself, I scored some new sneakers, pants, fleece shirts and some art supplies on sale. It was mostly a "you passed your classes this semester" kind of reward. I really didn't think I'd pass anything but I did. Whew.

So, I am actually taking a vacation. Since my last final I've been playing games and reading e-books on the iPad. I am addicted. It's worse now that we have real internet. I alternate between the games, books and Kdramas I download at night. However, this week I will get back to drawing.

Working with the tablet is challenging when I try to sketch from scratch. I've had better luck with scanning from my sketchbook and inking/lining the drawings in GIMP. Don't ask to see anything cos I think it's all crap. But I will let y'all know when I update my art page. I'm also through with my first roll of film so I'll post photos when I get them developed.

Okay, nothing else to see here...move it along. Hope y'all are okay.