Battlestar Galactica keeps leaving me all confused inside. The thing with Billy and Dee and Lee and I need to sit down. It's like being in love. All the ups and downs and stupidity that comes along with it. I won't say I hate Ron D. Moore or any of the writers. I'll admit this is what makes me watch, the insane that-shit-is-un-fucking-real moments.

I confess I did have an upchuck reflex at the last scene. My word, it didn't capture me. What was the significance? Not CapricaSharon, but Dualla and Lee. My dislike for the younger Adama grows. Just cos. No reason. Dee henceforth will be Dualla because there is no 'Dee' without the Billy. No more Colt 45-ing it, no more secretly wishing they'd get more screen time.

This weekend shall be christened "The Weekend of Deaths" on account of everyone dying and leaving Lakie all alone. Woe is me! Kyle Chandler aka Angry Bomb Squad dude who got blowed up is my forever love. Paul Campbell will eternally live on in every moment Roslin tilts her head in consideration of something political that goes against Cmdr. Adama. I mean, Billy.
PC ain't dead. Like someone else said, he better be a Cylon. Oh the joys were it were true. *sigh* My heart is heavy.

I also ended a ten month debacle relationship around this time two years ago. My, that was such a long time ago. But as a result, I have my Ike, who is yawning and watching me as I type. In my loneliness and renewed singledom, I saved him from being a lizard's rock in a pet store. I digress.

(At this moment a friend of a friend is fishing for details on my not speaking to Paula. She's not to be trusted and I'm dodging the questions. I hate how women love to ask around instead of going to the heart of the matter. I have this lj, practically any one of them can read it but they don't. It's like pulling teeth. They don't want to call me but get upset when I cease calling them. And when I vent here, I am purged. I'm not that difficult a person to talk to. Gah!)
I'm feeling right now.

He bit his lip to hold in the pain. But it only made the pain worse.

How could she? How did he not see it?

For all the times he saw them pass one another in the causeway nothing ever drew his attention. Nothing sent up red flags or concerned him. No one posed a threat. He didn't see it. Was he supposed to?

There were more pressing matters going on in the galaxy than whether or not his girlfriend was cheating on him. Moping would reap nothing.

Alone in the president's office on Colonial One, he morosely wiped the whiteboard clean. He replaced the number with an even smaller one.

Death.

His relationship was a trivial matter.

Later on Galactica, he met her with the same enthusiasm as he had many times. Not too eager, not too distant.

He wondered if she was aware that he knew her love was for another.

He made peace with that. She would never have him, the other man. And he would never have her completely.

Complications.

The world as they knew it was over. No profit in letting minor details get in the way of destiny.

He had her . . . for now. Maybe for always.

Yes, me is pimpin'. BIG PIMPIN'. Look at my purty icons for notshoppedicons :

             

The theme is Firefly and i wanted to find some things about the show that are underutilized in iconage. Kinda hard to read but the first says Bellerophon (wanted to add: home of the rich and paranoid) and the last says and the glow from that fire can truly light the world(it's a quote from JFK's inaugural speech. I saw it on a textbook and always stared at it because it was also a commemorative stamp and reminded me of Firefly) Of course, I am in love with Serenity's glow. And I wanted to do one for that moment Mal realizes how frakked up the worlds are in 'Serenity'. That moment where he sees the ships in the sky during the Battle of Serenity Valley cements the truth that is the world. Yeah. I'm gonna shut up now.

EDIT: *insert imaginary spoiler space* Gah! I can't even--oh my damn--WHY? I had hints at it but come on. Perhaps I'll warm up to it(not) but it's doubtful. Dee belongs with Billy. Scrap my dreams of her and Tyrol. This Lee thing is icky. Detestable. Makes my flesh crawl. Makes no sense whatsoever. I haven't seen the latest epi and I've been reading up and I'm not liking any of it. Lee sounds like a philandering mahkak(pardon my Lesser Antillean French Creole; means monkey and not in a nice way) rather than the panty-waist I've fashioned him in my mind. I was all set for him to declare his love for Billy (or Helo) who would respectfully decline and go on to lead the émigrés to Kobol. Aah, but I live in a fantasy world.