When I start working next week I won't have time for nuggets of introspection like this. Spoilers for everything, to be safe.

( What's with the babies? )

This has been inspired by President Roslin's view on reproduction mentioned once in the first season and again in Season Two regarding Hera and the Kibby woman from "The Captain's Hand". All in good fun. Bah.

Made some Boomer/CapricaSharon icons a ways back. Now, it seems fitting to post them.


    

I used a gimpshop writing brush from deviantart by iceytina.

I never really connected or identified with any one character on Battlestar Galactica. I mean, I fell for Tyrol and thought Kara was kick ass and fondly looked upon PapaAdama, but I wasn't vested in them insomuch as watched them through plate glass. When I watched that infamous episode and it plagued me with confusion, I realized I have a heroine.

CapricaSharon.

I thought back to the times she's been on the edge of good and evil. She protected Lee on Kobol. She still held feelings for Tyrol. She continued cooperating with Roslin even with her fate in the lurch.

I didn't have much of anything for her until I was faced with the thought of someone trying to break her down. She was already broken (and how many times do they have to smack her in the face?) there was nothing left to give. She doesn't know much about herself, her Cylon self. Things just come to her. A switch goes on and off and she gets what They want her to get.  I could go on further but this cold is making me lethargic

I am a bit traumatized by the last episode of BSG I watched a few days ago. I knew what was going to happen, however, seeing it made it more intense. Gah, where are the writers going with this? I'm beginning to hate the Pegasus fleet and Admiral Cain and love Galactica like a long lost child returning home. I wonder why can't they just jump to new galaxies and tell the new Battlestar "peace" with two fingers like a playa? I mean, come on! Finding out you're not alone in the world after you dealt with the fact of Cylons destroying humanity and continually attacking is work enough..
The goal seems to be make the human-ness of the Cylons prominent. Instead of thinking of them as toasters, I can see them as people with mechanical parts. CapricaSharon proved both her usefulness as a person and as a Cylon. Whatever she did to switch off the Cylon fighters in Pegasus saved the last bit of the human race. She is a Cylon, she doesn't want to kill them off. She has a baby and she wants to protect Baby's future and preserve her relationship with Helo (and Tyrol).
I wonder how it would be being something and not wanting to be it and finding out you're it and being alienated for it and having to deal with all that comes with it. It's kinda like being nonWASP in America. People say you're okay but they still mistreat you and cover it with kindness. And when they blatantly assault you, you become more and more aware of your usefulness to others as opposed to their usefulness to you. You are abused because that's the only way to communicate with you and you're not human. You may have human parts, look human and be human but you will never be. And you can't control who you are. It's not your fault.
But they made you and you evolved and now the creature they created is beyond their reasoning so they must destroy, dehumanize, annihilate it.
CapricaSharon is my antiheroine. She knows what she is and has accepted it. But she knows she's human, even if it's by way of Cylon fabrication, and she knows that her heart will lead her to the right place. Frak Pegasus. I hope the entire crew gets blindsided by a meteor and sent packing to the hottest, most torturous, desolate place in Hades. And their souls burn for eternity or come back as incarnations of the less fortunate who have to depend on others and feels shame every day and are thus shunned, abused and beaten. Because that would only be fair.