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22nd-Nov-2006 02:58 pm - Y'all know I have a thing for MacGyver?
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant
I think it has gotten worse being in L.A.  Yesterday, as my cousin was pulling out of her parking spot I shouted, "Look, there's a Jeep just like MacGyver's!" It made her stop the car and she got annoyed because she thought it was something serious. Yeah.  I am lame.

I even got upset when my other cousin said something bad about MacGyver. Like he wasn't real. I felt how I imagine guys feel when you tell them wrestling is fake. MacGyver is real, dammit!  I think I should be drinking. It doesn't help that I comfort myself by thinking O'Neill on Stargate (and its spinoff) is just MacGyver undercover. Don't judge me. And someone on my f-list ([info]snarkyart) posted screencaps from a new SG:A with RDA in them. I feel I should unabbreviate those things: Stargate: Atlantis and Richard Dean Anderson. I blame NaNo.

Last night I had to force myself to stop to get some sleep. I wrote from the time I got up(we went to Trader Joe's and the post office and I had to bring Wentworth so I could type) until about an hour before bed. Something like 3k words. I could very well win this thing.

It's Sylvia Browne Wednesday! I'm going to veg out on tv as a reward for writing til my fingers bled.

ETA: I'm now watching Season two of Lost. Cos y'all know I have a crush on Ana Lucia. I hate Lost so bad. I blame Tam for making me watch during our weekly phone calls and her asking me what the frell happened. I never wanted to watch it but slowly I got into it. And now, I watch it like I never watched before. I miss Lost. That is all for now.

8th-Nov-2005 09:11 am - Horriblescope for today . . .
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant
Quickie: When working with others, listen for different ideas -- someone is a genius!

Overview: Get ready, because there's some exciting stuff around the bend. All those thoughts you've been having about moving long-distance are becoming more insistent. You need a change of scenery.

Daily extended (by Astrology.com)
Your feelings about a certain situation, probably involving a family member or an old and dear friend will absolutely need to be expressed right now. Fortunately, you're ready to let them out -- and they're ready to hear it all. So when the time comes and you're asked about what you think of a certain situation, even if it means being a referee of sorts, don't hold back. There are ways to say what's on your mind without offending anyone, and you're familiar with them all.

Alright, so who's the genius? And isn't it weird it mentions my move to California? I have been trynna get thoughts straight about it but I'm lost.

27th-Oct-2005 08:56 am
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant

It's four to 9 and already I want to go home. I missed school and work yesterday just cos. Lousy excuse.

I come back with shit thrown about my desk and no one asks if I'm feeling better ( told them I had a major fever). Aah, well. Maybe I should get another job.

I've been thinking about how I'm gonna move my stuff to California. I may take a train because I don't know if they allow tortoises on airplanes these days and I'm not comfortable going anywhere without him.

25th-Oct-2005 12:30 pm - You ask me how my day was
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant

go to EarthCam and click on the Empire State Bldg viewcam. They decided in torrential rain that it was okay to send me to deathtrap MidMahtn Branch. Like they can't send one of their people. I'm the only one here and shit is piling up. It's bad enough my boss is now checking up on me whenever she has to print something(the printer is behind me). She's looking and asking what I'm doing. She never did that before.

These people disgust me. Every morning they listen to WBLIS or Hot97 and rag on people. They had the gall to call other people on making fun of Rosa Parks(PtB guide her) but it's okay to comment on how dark a person is every single fraking day? I think BSG lexicon has seeped in. I had to set up an employee file and her name was Caprice but I typed Caprica.

I'm looking at the EarthCam for Venice, where Lena lives and I'm dying. I need to get to Cali soon. Okay I'm gonna promise myself that no matter what, by my hatching day next year, I will be there. Even if I have no job, money or home. No backing down, Lake. Get a backbone.

24th-Aug-2005 08:48 am - Lulls of the low
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant

Perhaps it's the iced coffee from yesterday.

Perhaps it's the fact that next Monday classes start.

Perhaps it's the fact that Mother phoned to try to persuade me to visit my stepdad for school supplies.

But I'm down.

There's so much I want to do but I can't. There's so much I want to see but it'll have to wait.

I miss Cali.

1st-Aug-2005 03:31 pm - White Flag
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant
No I'm not giving up. This is war. The song is streaming from 106.7 Lite FM. I'm working on the series right now, typing up another episode. Moe finally emails me back. Gah, she makes me feel happy whenever she emails. She's the last friend I have left it seems.
Apparently it's been a f-you kinda mentality going on between Sherri and my mother. Mother has been this way since I could remember but she had me fooled by the way she pretended everything was for me. Last week or so when I got the check from the state for her she made it clear I had to send it to her asap. Money, that's all she cares about. Sometimes you let people do things cuz you think they care but they don't. And I give them the benefit of the doubt. My own mother.
Electricity is close to $400 and after I talk to Sherri about conserving energy this morning at 4 am the light's burning. I go to toilet and I'm there for a good minute and the light's still on. It pisses me off to the nth degree. She cut off her dreads and I can't stand to look at her now. I know it's bad but I have no time to feel guilty about feelings for someone who is in cohoots with my mother to screw me over.
I'm not supposed to tell her that Mother sent the rent money back to me? What kind of shit is that?
Every day California is looking better and better. I talked to my cousin Arlene Saturday and I was jealous cuz she was heading to the beach. I can't wait til I can drive down to the coast and not think of anything for a bit.
It's really depressing that while I'm working so hard to further myself, my mother is trying to bring me down and keep me back. I can't believe she's smiling in my face and then doing ill shit behind my back. She calls this morning and I was irate cuz it was early telling me that the rent was due today. I said, I know. What the fuck was she calling me for? We talked about this just Tuesday. She repeated it and then got wind of my ire and said she was going to the post office today.

Would it be that bad if I said screw senior year and packed up my shit and went to Cali right now?
I think Mother's resentful Tam went to Minneapolis in June and she's further than ever. She has no right after setting up credit in her name and building negative credit on Tam's name. That's another story. I am so angry I have distance myself from Mother and Sherri so I don't say something I will regret. PTB save me.

26th-Jul-2005 03:09 pm
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant
I'm writing again. NO, actually I'm updating again. It's not on my site yet, so don't go trapsing through to find anything. I have one episode still typed and a few that are almost ready for consumption. Keen.

I miss California.

Last night I dreamt of things that were all weird. I told Kev to go back to Penn so he won't go to jail and I had moved already. I was happy and free and felt like my effort was worth something. Now, what's that really like?

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