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25th-Nov-2006 11:45 am - Cos it's Saturday and there's nothing on
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant
I am way confused. 

Avatar: the Last Airbender is on, and I watched this specific hour-long episode a few days ago as well.  I know that sentence was hard to read, that whore NaNo and I got into a tiff . . . Every time I watch this show, I grow more confused.  Arrowhead Monk boy, Aang is what, Buddhist? His pals Katara and Sakka(Wakka? Whokka?) they are supposed to be --how do I put this delicately-- ethnic?  The purple clothes are dead giveaway.  When I first saw the show(at Tiffany's house), we both looked at each other with the same thought: who is the brown girl? Cos we think in unison sometimes.

People are on it like shit on a stick. I can't bring myself to cross over.  I still blame [info]rawles for the last couple of fandoms I tried to keep down but exploded into crazy fannishness. So, this is one show I can do without. I mean, I watch five shows a week habitually--Prison Break, Veronica Mars, Lost, Supernatural and Battlestar Galactica.  That's one show a night, an hour each day. I catch Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy, too but usually on the weekends at abc.com.  I have supreme loyalty to SPN and BSG. Gah, I sound like a small-minded follower.

Oh look! Ghost Busters II is on again. Must watch and stop thinking.
20th-Sep-2006 02:33 pm - Argh!!!
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant
Not five minutes ago I received a call from some staffing agency about an HR job. It sounded great until the woman on the line asked which part of HR I was interested in Benefits or Recruiting. I don't believe in lying, cos who wants a dishonest employee, so I said Recruiting. Of course, it was in Benefits and though I said I was still interested in the position, the woman said it wouldn't be a good fit. These were her words: "it requires a lot of data entry, calling and we want someone who enjoys that". She didn't give me a chance to explain that I have done this and it is nothing new to me. I do have a passion for all aspects of HR except payroll and accounting. Apparently she thinks I'd be likely looking for another job in recruiting or something. Made me feel like I gave up an opportunity because I didn't say what they wanted to hear. Gah!

Good news is, I received an email from the LA Daily News about another op. This only motivates me to leave now. Tonight I have to call Lena about arrangements.

EDIT: The doctor who I was hoping to work for just rang me up. Since I am not in LA yet, he told me to call him back when I was. He was nice, though I suspect it was a brush off. Maybe, we'll see. Not holding my breath.

And another thing, GREY'S or SPN??? GREY'S or SPN??? In honor of my dilemma I unveil my new Jensen icon. It's about damn time I got one. We all know who gonna win this battle. SPN and the three J's are dead to me but Mere & Co is deader.
4th-Apr-2006 09:55 am - I am nor have I ever been CUTE
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant
When I captain my own spaceship after Earth implodes and we have to live on Mars, artamora will not be one of my passengers. Yeah, cos she said I was cute. Well, what I said that was cute. Lake is very angry with this but will get over it.

My sleep patterns have been less than optimal. Last night I had a colossal headache and I dropped off at ten. I wake up at almost 3am can't settle back down. It doesn't help that at four, the winos converge on my front stoop and smoke. And it doesn't help that I'm restless. 

Bruce rang me but I was too tired to answer, and I didn't want to have to deal with the bootycall-like conversation that would ensue. Men are right, women can have sex any time they want. Me, on the other hand, I am fickle so no. This week marks two years and seven months of my being superfrustrated, as I like to call it. Not that I am complainin' but I am complainin'! Every time I see that What about Brian commercial on ABC where that one guy says: "I haven't had sex in six months" I want to scream. I snarl and say, "get use to it, buckoo." Granted, mine is self-imposed but I'm not about to lay with some schmuck just cos. 

Humor me as I am sidetracked by a post on MSN Spaces about Race. Not gonna get into that one. Where was I? Uhm, yeah. I feel feeble and sick, not physically but emotionally. Not ready to be jumping into anything or causing someone heartache. Every time I am interested in a lad, I turn on myself, like an autoimmune disease. I hate myself for having feelings and wanting to be regular, cos, *shocker* I wasn't raised that way. Sometimes when people say they love me, I wonder what they want. Not with my friends though. Family, I mean. I send Tam emails that just say I love her and she shouldn't forget it. Cos, I am a coward and can't say it to her on the phone or face to face. We weren't an affectionate bunch when I was growing up. I think I was, can be, but I learned to be cold and unemotional. I want to be warm but it's difficult. If I learned anything from my stepdad, it was that I was never to be weak (My nana countered this by always babying me). Yesterday I asked the eternal questions I knew had answers but I was hoping someone else could tell me them.  Why am I like this? Why do I continue with irrational thoughts when I know the truth? Why, why why?

  Well then, regarding Scofield, Sucre and the lot of them...  
Readers, you will hear from me again. You have been warned. Not done asking why.
20th-Feb-2006 01:23 am - 18 degrees outside
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant

And I must sleep with the fan on. I have on the space heater for Ike but that's not the reason. Comfort. The cool air on my body is comforting. Watching Frasier, too. Had a bit of a cry. And was in shock over the last bit of Grey's (why? WHY, Shonda?) Will not speak on it. I should. I should I should.

( Grey's never jumped the shark )

It is late. Gonna let BSG2.17 download in peace. Maybe it'll be done by the time I get up in the morning.
Why is Richard frakkin Hatch on my MacGyver? I never knew he could be so evil and so good looking. EDIT: Ten am. Wake up and what does iTunes say? error. So here I am, dling BSG again. Nobody better call me today. I will shank a bitch if they disrupt my BSG dl. From the beginning!EDIT 2x: Did I mention the aforementioned is a major bitch? I'm downloading it AGAIN.

13th-Feb-2006 09:19 am
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant

Due to my haywire emotions(I swear my amygdala went on hiatus) I was in tears the entire episode of Grey's Anatomy. Normally I don't talk about the show because it is my guilty pleasure don't feel the need. ( *spoiler upon us* )

11th-Dec-2005 09:56 pm - What the fuck am I doing?
Dean Question, DeeandBilly, Fat Momma, Frazzled Mary, human, Actors, felix, pentacle please, Dean Bloody, Ruby Rod, mystify bs, hopeful greys, Knife, kara skeptic, iconofilth, Ah hell no, red leaves, Cylon Sheep, Oddity, Laura hands, frakkin hero, Leoben, Dee dreamer, Just Breathe, fallen man, spn, Fade away, useless people, ronon dex, Upstairs brain, Hedwig Approves, bang, Whoop T-Bag, impalasky, Rufus, Rogue, giant

It's minutes to ten (can't wait for that new Grey's Anatomy!!!) and I still haven't ecris'd my History paper that's due tomorrow night. And it was due last Monday but I had a chat with the prof and squeezed another week outta her. I also have a term paper due Woden's day that I just began researching. I think I may just be trying to sabotage myself because I'm close to completing five years of hard work(with hiatuses) and I can't imagine what's to come next. And I'm already using my degree on myself. Psychobabble is so convoluted . . . majoring in it has brought me to this conclusion. If I majored in English I might have been done about a year ago. Aww well.

The use of violence justified in government. That is the easiest topic based on the readings. I should be done now. But why aren't I? One week before I end the semester and I'm stalling. I think taking on everyone's drama has overwhelmed me so. Mother phoned me before VMars came on and all I could think was, "could she shut it so I can catch ten more minutes of sleep?" She only called because I rang her up two days ago just checking up on her. She sounded guilty about something, like she felt badly about not calling me in over a month.

VMars was anti-climatic. But I did come away feeling the way I did when I fell in love with the show. I went in unspoiled for once, and it did not help. I knew what was coming. Still, I loved it. I have only one gripe: Kristen Bell and her reaction to news about the big shocker. It wasn't up to par. There seemed to be a hidden joy behind her tears. Maybe I'm projecting.  It was creepy. That warm feeling was there, though, at the end, reminding me of the opening scene of the premiere epi of the season. That should have happened then. Although, it did make more sense now.  

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